[It's a lot for Fenris to take in at the moment — and not because he's being bombarded with more flashes and anxieties. He can't remember the last time (was there one?) someone took the time to make sure he felt comfortable. He can't remember the last time someone took something slow so that he could keep himself steady. He doesn't understand it.
He feels okay again, on Rafe's lap, no longer having those encroaching thoughts shouting at him about how he's in danger. "You're the one in control". Such a simple statement and yet Fenris can't exactly grasp it. Just when he thinks he has an understanding of control it slips through his fingers like a fistful of sand.
He finally allows himself to meet Rafe's gaze.]
And if it happens again?
[What if it's too much, and Rafe gets sick of dealing with it?]
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cw: body dysmorphia/horror, implications of past sexual/physical abuse, past slavery, ptsd
Date: 2020-12-17 01:07 pm (UTC)He feels okay again, on Rafe's lap, no longer having those encroaching thoughts shouting at him about how he's in danger. "You're the one in control". Such a simple statement and yet Fenris can't exactly grasp it. Just when he thinks he has an understanding of control it slips through his fingers like a fistful of sand.
He finally allows himself to meet Rafe's gaze.]
And if it happens again?
[What if it's too much, and Rafe gets sick of dealing with it?]