Fenris (
magicalglowstick) wrote2020-06-30 12:03 am
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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, SHARTAN. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 018.07.154.55 *** SHARTAN has joined 018.07.154.55 <SHARTAN> speak | ||||
<shartan>
[He feels slightly better now. But only slightly.]
if none of this is permanent then i hope it wont last much longer
<dismas>
[ not because they're friends but because this is up in the most unsettling conversations he's ever had in his life. ]
you want to discuss some of this prior mindfuck you mentioned off the cuff there, pal
<shartan>
its a shameful memory
<dismas>
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you don't consider it a little ironic that you got mindfucked while fucking around someone else's head?
<shartan>
there are several levels of irony to what transpired that night and none of them are lost on me thank you
<dismas>
so then explain it to me
<shartan>
i told you its a shameful memory
hawke received a letter from a young mages mother asking him for help from the demons who put him into a coma. so she called on the help of the dalish to perform a ritual which allowed us to enter his dreams to defeat the demons trying to wrest control of him
hawke could only take so many people with him and i was one of them
[And he remembers clearly how he blamed Hawke for that afterwards. Why him of all people? ]
i fell prey to a demons temptations and turned on hawke
[The magic hater, the demon hater, so many levels of irony the others didn't let him live down.]
<dismas>
the way this place works at least this gives you some kind of control over telling it rather than waking up one and finding it's slapped up on a downtown billboard or something
[ hmmmmm how best to say "wish it'd been a permanent turn on that son of a bitch" ]
why did you go with him?
<shartan>
[Don't say it at all!]
what do you mean? because he wanted me to go
<dismas>
but you hate most magic shit
<shartan>
yes, how observant of you to notice
<dismas>
the way a bellowing stampede is a minor disturbance
[ hence why rafe is staying in his room and not going up there with mr. claws and horns. ]
<shartan>
[Can we be done talking about this now???]
<dismas>
so why didn't you just say no
<shartan>
action;
Fat fucking chance.
No, Rafe has just been a bit busy reading some other content on the network this evening. ]
Hey, you want to hear something else crazy going on today?
[ Called as Rafe ascends the stairs into the garret attic that Fenris has made his own, laptop balanced on one arm. ]
There's some dumbass right on the network, stole your username and everything, says he's going to be leaving the house to see Javert at the prison.
[ And he shuts the laptop with a quiet click while staring down at a certain pile of blue stupid. ]
I mean, obviously that's not you because did we not just make a fucking plan to not go out and thus avoid this particular pot of crazy?
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The plan as changed, [he offers simply.] I must check on Javert.
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[ One moment, opening his computer again to read: ]
"Why would you go alone?"
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[Because it's not important what happens to him.]
If his mind is not his own then I can't stand by and do nothing.
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...Uh huh. So then clearly the option is to stand next to him and do... [ He pauses, waiting for Fenris to tell him what exactly he plans on attempting in this bullshit crazy scheme. ] What, exactly? Scowl him back to sanity?
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Don't be foolish. I would do whatever must be done. But I would need to see him first to know what that is.
[He pauses, knowing that doesn't exactly answer anything.]
If something took his mind and body as I suspect then there is one mercy I can grant him.
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So you're going to go over there and if in your infinite wisdom of dealing with weird shit you can't find anything else, you'll stab him. [ Snapping his laptop shut again. ] Solid idea there, partner.
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That is not what I'm saying at all. I'm going over there to assess the situation and if he becomes dangerous only then will I do what needs to be done.
If not, then perhaps I can talk him back from this madness.
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[ Do not count on him leaving this house and getting drunk on whatever's out there in the air. ]
Way a partnership works, in case you're forgetting? Needs two heads sticking together on a goddamn plan rather than splitting up to do some stupid shit. Like this.
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The more he thinks on it the more he's ashamed that he was going to blatantly disregard Rafe's objection to his plan.]
I...fine then.
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